Busted. Lawrence here called me out in a response to yesterday’s post (“I know what you want”)
Lolllllll. If you were “free from concern”, you wouldn’t be talking about it or trying to convince us how “free” you are. You wouldn’t be concerned. Nice try thooooo.
God dammit, Lawrence.
Leave me alone.
I’m working on it.
All I can say is GFY. 😂
Maybe I should subscribe to your email list?
I had a feeling this would come up. I tried to deal with it in the email because there is a distinction and you damn well know it, but I couldn’t make it work.
I guess I was hoping no one would notice.
I’ll figure it out.
Fucking Lawrence.
She’s right tho. One of your signatures is to lean so hard into concerns about what people 'think' that you change them. It’s your strength. Stay concerned bruv.
Hey Ryan,
This post is making me think about something I’ve been wrestling with for a while.
A very good friend of mine has gone down the indigenous, spiritual journey, rabbit hole over the last four years.
It started with Plant medicine, journeys, to fire dances all night to vision fast out in the woods for days.
Now I don’t have any problem with any of this stuff. I think it’s great. The problem I have is that my friend is never been more miserable in his entire life.
He went from a joyful, interesting person that was excited for life. Now he’s like a cardboard cut out trying to achieve some fucking Samadhi or some shit.
Our latest conversation he told me he’s just gonna stop working hard and just focus on loving himself.
Again, I think that’s cool, but the problem is this man wants things in reality.
I think that’s the whole problem with spirituality in general is you can go and sit in a cave and you can find contentment in that, but the second you wanna do anything in reality you need to get the fuck out of the spiritual realm and take action.
I had a really cool meditation teacher named Michael Stone and he would always remind me your spiritual practices. Need to make your life and relationships better otherwise what is the fucking point. And I think he was right.
I don’t know how this relates to your situation I figured I’d commandeer your platform to spout this.
Any thoughts ideas feedback you have would be great.
I do want to have a conversation with him and try to reel him back to reality. And I don’t know if he’s also low testosterone and that’s what’s up with his mental health or what.
I’m at a loss but I’d really like to be able to reconnect with him and help him out if he’s willing.
I could probably go off even more on this, so I’m definitely gonna write more about it so I can figure out how to construct this in a way that he is able to receive it .