Busted. Lawrence here called me out in a response to yesterdayās post (āI know what you wantā)
Lolllllll. If you were āfree from concernā, you wouldnāt be talking about it or trying to convince us how āfreeā you are. You wouldnāt be concerned. Nice try thooooo.
God dammit, Lawrence.
Leave me alone.
Iām working on it.
All I can say is GFY. š
Maybe I should subscribe to your email list?
I had a feeling this would come up. I tried to deal with it in the email because there is a distinction and you damn well know it, but I couldnāt make it work.
I guess I was hoping no one would notice.
Iāll figure it out.
Fucking Lawrence.
Sheās right tho. One of your signatures is to lean so hard into concerns about what people 'think' that you change them. Itās your strength. Stay concerned bruv.
Hey Ryan,
This post is making me think about something Iāve been wrestling with for a while.
A very good friend of mine has gone down the indigenous, spiritual journey, rabbit hole over the last four years.
It started with Plant medicine, journeys, to fire dances all night to vision fast out in the woods for days.
Now I donāt have any problem with any of this stuff. I think itās great. The problem I have is that my friend is never been more miserable in his entire life.
He went from a joyful, interesting person that was excited for life. Now heās like a cardboard cut out trying to achieve some fucking Samadhi or some shit.
Our latest conversation he told me heās just gonna stop working hard and just focus on loving himself.
Again, I think thatās cool, but the problem is this man wants things in reality.
I think thatās the whole problem with spirituality in general is you can go and sit in a cave and you can find contentment in that, but the second you wanna do anything in reality you need to get the fuck out of the spiritual realm and take action.
I had a really cool meditation teacher named Michael Stone and he would always remind me your spiritual practices. Need to make your life and relationships better otherwise what is the fucking point. And I think he was right.
I donāt know how this relates to your situation I figured Iād commandeer your platform to spout this.
Any thoughts ideas feedback you have would be great.
I do want to have a conversation with him and try to reel him back to reality. And I donāt know if heās also low testosterone and thatās whatās up with his mental health or what.
Iām at a loss but Iād really like to be able to reconnect with him and help him out if heās willing.
I could probably go off even more on this, so Iām definitely gonna write more about it so I can figure out how to construct this in a way that he is able to receive it .